No, really....I'm too young for this.

Too much going on in my mind. Not physically doing anything. Up all night, sleep all day. My life was always going going going - working non-stop, and it has all stopped. My head feels like its going to blow up. Since the time I was diagnosed, I had very little time off from work. I never gave myself a chance to really think about any of what I was going through. I was all work. Its really sad to say but it has taken about 3 years for me to realized that I have cancer. It has really sunk in. And I'm ready to get rid of it! I have my official "transplant talk" with my oncologist Sept 2nd. Stoked! I can't wait to get this over with. I'm also applying for disability... cooool...NOT....Oh, and I'm getting a effing BONE MARROW TRANSPLANT.

Planet Cancer dot org

Is the best site I have ever discovered. I should have done this three years ago. I posted a thread on the BMT survivors group and I'm so amazed by the feedback. Not only did these people go a mile to tell me how they felt, what to do/what not to do. But they sent personal msgs telling me to keep them updated - - - I'm just AMAZED that strangers care. Its hard enough to get my own friends to listen. Oh, and only 15 people on the entire site have CML. We are like rare colored diamonds.


Oh hey - remember when I was looking for donations for the Leukemia research foundation? .... guess what?
Team "Lauren's Laughter" was ranked #1! HOLLERRRR - We won a netbook , and two round trip tix to anywhere in the US! And Amy was invited to an award ceremony - I hope she asks me to be her date.


That is all for now. Posi Thoughts.